I am the perfect sell...

invis_shadow @ 2006-03-21T16:25:00

2006-03-21T22:47:16Z

Okay, I've been thinking about this more a while now, kind of writing it in my head for a few weeks now, and writing and rewriting it on here for a good hour. Nothing's coming out smoothly, so this will probably be more stream of consciousness than actual structure.

I'm sorry about the way things ended between us. You deserved better than to have me just dump you like that. My life was going quite badly at that point no that's got nothing to do with it. I screwed up. My mom found a couple of pictures, and it... wasn't pretty. I really didn't have a choice as to whether or not you were going to still be a part of my life. I shouldn't have ended it the way I did though. I was embarrassed and angry and mad at my mother for not letting me do what I wanted, which was to be friends with you and she didn't like our "more than just friends" relationship and she "could totally tell that that girl was into me and I was playing with her affections" and... gah. I'm sorry.
I treated you like shit, I lashed out at Carol and I was just an overall asshole.

It wasn't right of me to let our relationship become what it did when I knew I couldn't maintain it. It wasn't just my parents. I knew that things were getting more serious before you came down to visit, and I saw how you were when I talked about other girls. It was stupid of me to lead you along like that, even though that's what we had somewhat agreed upon. If I'm completely wrong here, then fine. But I've regretted that consideerably.

I'm doing better now, back in college full time and making good grades. I've been seeing a girl from one of my classes for a little over a month now. I'm not telling you this to rub your face in it, I'm not really sure why I'm telling you. It wasn't easy after I dumped you. I thought about you a lot, saw things and wanted to tell you about them, lost really the only person I talked with.
I see you every know and then online and wonder how you are, if you still hate me. I know sure I deserve it. I heard The Gift on the radio a few days ago and so many memories hit me over the head. They did a crappy remix of it too, so that kinda helped I guess.

I think I've probably rambled on enough now, I don't know if I've gotten anywhere. I don't expect this to change anything, and to be honest I don't really want it to. I don't know what to expect from you. If you don't reply to this, I'll live. If you tell me to fuck off, I'll understand. If there's anything you want to say, something I can explain, ask.

I just ... I thought you should know that I'm sorry. I was an asshole, and you deserve better. You really do.

Had to share.

2005-09-15T21:30:48Z

I saw these signs the other day (sadly before I got my digital camera) and thought you guys would get a kick out of them.

This one was on a school, the same one that I tagged a while back.

WE CARE FOR
HURRICANE KATRINA
VICTIMS COLLECTION
CENTER HERE
I think the line breaks there say it all... they're obviously worried about hurting the hurricane's feelings, so they're collecting the victims here.

Can't remember where I saw this one.

BRING US FOOD
AND WATER
WE WILL GIVE 2
KATRINA VICTIMS
Now it's a hostage situation!

Yeah, people are dumb. Well meaning maybe, but dumb.

Customers suck

2005-09-15T00:06:21Z

My verbosity increases accordingly as my level of boredom escalates.

invis_shadow @ 2005-08-30T14:19:00

2005-08-30T19:42:47Z

I should probably update, shouldn't I?

It's not like anything exciting has happened though.
Work's the same, despite school starting yesterday. Rather than have my hours cut back which I was expecting, Pete just shuffled me & Rob around so I have pretty much the same number of hours as before. I guess I shouldn't complain, but I was kinda looking forward to going down to 4 days a week.
School started yesterday, as I said. I'm looking forward to my aikido class tonight, and kinda glad my earring went ahead and came out already. Can't imagine a martial arts class would be fun with a fresh hole in the head.

I'm not going to talk about my (total lack of a) love life here, because it's depressing. All I'm going to say is Joe needs to have another party.

And since Veronica wanted me to talk about work (link), I'm gonna talk about work.
Sonic is totally stupid. The higher-ups there are skating full speed without brakes towards the cliff that is bankruptcy.
The Drive-thru is the. worst. idea. ever. It completely goes against everything that Sonic is supposed to be about. It makes corporate money though, because people are sheep and think that the drive thru is faster. It's not any faster, and 9 times out of 10 it's slower. But more importantly, people don't tip in the drive thru, which hurts the carhops. Does corporate care about that? Course not.
The wierdest thing is that it really doesn't bring in that much more business. It just diverts a lot of our old business.
The Quick Pay machines are the second worst idea ever. (Credit/Debit machines at each stall, automatically run for the order amount, no option for a tip) It forces our customers to carry cash to tip us. I mean come on. Friendswood is totally cashless town. Corporate has the attitude that the customer shouldn't feel pressured into giving us a tip. I completely fail to see how having the OPTION for a tip is too much pressure. You go into a restaurant, you'll see a line on there for a tip, and sometimes even a suggested amount(based on percentages). Unless corporate thinks that all of our customers are that susceptible, in which case I should probably go around selling them drugs. Peer pressure, man. Sonic says it works. :D

And then this is just plain shitty planning on their part.
We just had our menus totally revamped. Combo numbers shuffled, items taken off, prices raised, etc. Now here's the kicker.
A month after we just had those menus printed and installed at a fairly considerable expense to the stores, corporate decided to add a new drink: Diet Dr. Pepper.
Is it on these new menus? Obviously not. So now we have little banners and crap everywhere, just like we do for each month's promo. I understand we need to promote a new item so they know we have it, but this isn't a one month promo(or even an extended summer promo) it's a full time addition to the menu.
So my question is, why in the flying hell did they not decide this sooner so we could have the menus printed with "Diet Dr. Pepper" on them?

invis_shadow @ 2005-06-26T13:12:00

2005-06-26T18:18:16Z

You know how they set things on fire to serve as warnings? The Black Rock on "Lost", the KKK's crosses, lighthouses, etc.

Hopefully other rapists and those considering it saw this bonfire.

I would say "Well done, mother!" but "well done rapist" seems a bit more appropriate. :D

CS # 6

2005-05-06T20:42:30Z

Walk down the right alley in Sin City, you can find anything.

Can you hear the sheep, Joe?

2005-04-26T06:13:41Z

Although I believe a circle best describes us, a never-ending process of learning and communicating, for today I would say we are more like a rectangle. There is a general description for rectangles, but the description can include any 4-sided figure including a square. Now a square is more restrictive. If the sides are not equal, then it is not a square, but it is still a rectangle. We are a support group. That can pretty much fit into anything we want it to fit into. We could just be a gathering at park day, and we would still be a support group. Or we can have something as organized as the recent co-op within BACH and still be a support group. But if we become an "official" organization, with a secretary, minutes and job descriptions we become a square and we spend all our attention on trying to stay being a square. There is only so much that each of us moms can accomplish and every year that amount changes for each of us. I don't know if any of us has the time to take on anymore than we already have. We have succeeded for three years being a rectangle. Our sides change lengths depending on what we want to do for that year, but our support is always there. Am I on the right page?

- excerpt from Denise McKeon's latest BACH newsletter

CS Post #5

2005-04-17T22:04:43Z

I'm lazy, so you don't get a witty one liner this time.

CS Post #4

2005-04-05T01:46:49Z

I am not the staff you are looking for.

This Isn't My Song

2005-02-18T02:01:06Z

Here's the thing
I starred on a show
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah, Yeah
This isn't my song

You're dedicated,
You took the time
Every night you called me in
Yeah Yeah
still isn't my song

And all you'd ever hear me sing
was waiting a lifetime for you
That's all you'd ever hear me sing

This isn't my song
Someone else wrote it last night
I'm such a pop star
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you
Now I got
What I want
Isn't my song

What can I say?
You voted me on
Because I sang that stupid love song
Yeah Yeah
it wasn't my song

How come you never hear me sing,
Something that I wrote myself?
Prob'ly cuz I don't know how

Yeah, this isn't my song
Ben and Avril 'helped' me
Their song's moving up
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you
Now I got ... I got what I want
This isn't my song

You had your chance, you blew it
What were you, out of your mind?
Shut me up, I'm such a poser
again and again and again and again!

*insert crappy guitar solo by unnamed band member*

Isn't my song (isn't my song)
Layer'd a zillion times over
I bury the drums
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you (Thanks to you)
Now I think ... I think I should scream!
I hit platinum for the third time
It's still moving up
Yeah Yeah
Thanks to you, Thanks to you
Now I get (I get)
You should know, You should know
That it's all
It's all cuz of you

Isn't my song
Isn't my song
Isn't my song

As promised...

2005-02-05T05:52:39Z

Tell me how much I rock. :D

CS Post #3

2004-11-12T00:48:36Z

QC fueled customers sucking!

That was fun. I need to do it some more. :D

As of today...

2004-09-24T19:03:00Z

My journal is nearly completely Friends Only.

Mainly because I'm sick of writing rants and having wierd people reply with completely off topic messages.
So all of you wierd people... yeah. You can reply here. :P

You know you're not normal when...

2004-09-21T21:07:13Z

I think that line could be applied to just about any aspect of my life, current or past.
But lately it seems more fitting than normal.

Yesterday, I was getting ready to leave for work and I realized my car was blocked.
The owner of the car?
A local nun, who was being interviewed by my mother.
**Sister, excuse me can I borrow your keys? Thanks** (doesn't everyone say that?)
I came home from work yesterday and changed for school.
I got blocked again.
This time it was someone else who was helping run the five phone lines to our house for the upcoming radiothon.
(doesn't everyone run a phone bank at their house?)

Today...
My mom went out to do some doctor's appointments and stuff, and wasn't expected back till about 2:30.
Some Bishop from Africa was supposed to show up at 3 and go on air at 3:30.
(yes, we have a broadcast studio in my house. Doesn't everyone?)

Veronica and I were bored, the house was cleaned so we decided to go out and spend money at the mall.
She got some cool new Hot Topic Labyrinth-esque earrings and I got a cool "I steal music" shirt.
At 2:15, I pull into the driveway.
A silver minivan pulls in behind me, a priest is in the passenger seat.

I'm more than a little annoyed, because I'm totally not dressed for receiving a bishop into my home.
(I'm totally comfortable with playing host to a bishop and such(again, isn't everybody?), but my attire reflects badly on my mom and her radio and all, so grr)
Not to mention my mom isn't even home yet, because THEY'RE 45 MINUTES EARLY!!!

We greet each other and they decide to leave, seeing as how they have an hour plus before they go on air.
They're going to go and drive 25-30 minutes one way to see a friend in the hospital.
Meaning that they'll get back right before 3:30 when they're supposed to go on air.

They pulled in at 3:26.
Mom was not happy.
She vented a bit on the bishop(doesn't everyone get to do that?), and then they went on air.

They're live now, so I have to be quiet... but yeah, it's just a little odd how normal this all seems to me.

invis_shadow @ 2004-09-20T17:53:00

2004-09-20T23:24:44Z

Okay, I've been sitting her trying to think of something to say, but nothing is coming out.

It probably has something to do with the fact that I'm online doing my best to make Krystal fall out of her chair. Haven't gotten there yet, but she's come close a few times.

I keep waiting for her to show up on my doorstep and kidnap me. Either that, or one day I'll open the mail and a one-way plane ticket is gonna fall out.
Either way, we're going to have to meet eventually.

Because I'm really really really damn bored.

2004-09-17T01:48:35Z

My laptop is dead.
The screen has gone dark. Dammit.
Now it's in the shop.

Again. This sucks ass.
At least there's a warranty.
But I still miss it.

Work today was long.
Ten and one-third hours worth.
My feet are on strike.

I made good tips though.
Forty-two dollars should help
to buy some Aleve.

Much thanks to Krystal.
Firstly, just for being cool.
And I have new pants.

She gave me presents.
One of them was a gift card.
I spent it wisely.

And now I shall go,
for my stomach is growling.
Fair well, dear reader.

Heheee... star wars fun.

2004-09-15T23:33:52Z

Come and see the *exclusive* preview of the new and revised (again) Star Wars movies.
http://www.somethingawful.com/articles.php?a=2374

Or, to get right to the bestest ones...

Poor Mr. Lucas... you take one of the coolest movie series ever and totally ruin it, and the public never lets you forget.

Me, the Exotic Dancer

2004-09-14T21:18:21Z

Amanda, this is the story.
Krys, you'll like this too.

Last night I gassed up my car (I know, major excitement there) and went inside the store to pay for it.
Normally after a shift at Sonic I exchange my tips for bigger bills, but yesterday I was in a hurry and didn't.
So I paid the cashier in singles. 24 of them.
She asked me "You like ones, don't you?"
Me: "Well, it kind of goes with the job."
She gave me this really funny look and it took me a second or two to realize what she thought I meant.
Me: "No, not that job."
Her: "Oh."

She laughed at me because I was blushing and feeling stupid, but she looked a little disappointed.
And I think she lost count on purpose.

And now I'm gonna go hide.

invis_shadow @ 2004-09-10T16:18:00

2004-09-10T21:19:47Z

I'm going to reformat my computer tonight, so if anyone needs me, I'll be on my computer but most likely without any internet.

If you MUST get ahold of me, ... too bad. :P

wheeeee!!!!!

2004-09-10T03:21:25Z

I have my computer back!

Yay for wireless laptops!

There was only a minor moment of panic when I first turned it on and couldn't log in. It seems that had disabled my password, so that the correct password to log in was actually no password at all.

But I'm happy!!! I have my computer back, and it's back in my room, and maybe I can finally get a bit more privacy now.

I know that would make Krystal happy. :P

Just a good ol' boy...

2004-09-09T21:35:45Z

Otay...

Work today was good. I made bunches of money carhopping, which is always nice. Especially when you know your car needs to go in the shop soon. (don't worry, we're getting to that one)

The starter on my car has been going out. Past few days it makes a bad grinding noise after the engine turns over, but that's all. I knew it wasn't a good thing, but I needed a car and I planned on putting it in the shop after class tonight. (seeing as how I can ride my bike to work tomorrow and don't have class tomorrow night)
My car kind of forced the issue this morning though, when it gave me a long loud grinding noise before starting up.
Methinks: Joy. Just start for me one more time after my shift, and I'll take you start to the shop, okay? Now be a good little car and get me to work.

I go, I work, I make bunches of money (I know I already said that, but so what?)
I get off work. I start the car, and the noise is even worse. It doesn't even start on the first attempt.
Methinks: This is not good. Just get me there, okay?

I drive to the shop. At the light before the shop, the car decides it wants to stall. and die.
Methinks: Fuckity fuck fuck fuck.

I put on my flashers, the hotrod car behind me gets pissy and has to wait a minute before it can peel out around me, and a minute later a lady in a black Ford F-150 offers to push me over. She does, and then a kid in a typical Friendswood style monster truck offers to give me a push start.

My faith in humanity is greatly restored by these people.
The first lady was just trying to get me out of the way, but the kid was awesome. (It's funny, I say kid because he's probably only 18.)
He was a shining example of why the good ol' boys from the South are referred to as the good ol' boys. (This is a good thing, read on)

He drove into the left turn lane (where I was temporarily stationed while I waited for the light to clear so I could run to the car shop and get them to tow me), drove up onto the median and then dropped back in front of me.
He hops out of his car, doesn't say a word to me but looks down at my bumper.
He looks up at me and says "You have a tow hook. That's good."
Methinks: ---- ? (think some combination of w00t and wtf, that was about where I was)
Me: "thanks."
He grabs a rope from the bed of his truck, hooks it to the tow hook and to his trailer hitch. Turns to me again and says "I'm gonna give you a push start. When we get going about 10 miles an hour, I'm gonna honk my horn. Drop it into second and let off the clutch. It'll start right up."
Methinks: Dude, you so friggin rock. (I knew what a push start was, but hey, I wasn't expecting that.)
Me: "Thanks."
He climbs up into his truck and stops in the middle. Turns around and says "Just don't rear end me, okay?"
Me: *grin* "Don't worry, I won't."

We get going, he honks, I let out the clutch and lo and behold, it works.
Methinks: That was kind of fun. Never done that one before.
We stop our cars, he gets out and unhooks the line, I shake his hand and thank him.
He declines the $10 I offer, but promises to take me up on my offer of a free drink at Sonic.
Me: Look, dude, you really helped me out. I mean, here... I work at Sonic. Come in tomorrow and I'll get you a free drink. How's that?

I drive the remaining block to the car shop, and park it there.
Turn off the car, and I don't care that it's not going to start up again. They can deal with that, that's what they're paid for. ;)
I call my mom, and she comes to pick me up.

It's funny. I remember getting a lot of crap from the techies for being from the hick state of Texas, but it's things like that that I'm going to miss.
I don't know much about that guy, I don't even know his name.
But I know that when he saw someone who needed help, he stepped forward.
and THAT is why it was so cool.
That kid wasn't heading the same way as me, I saw him turn around after he drove off.
He went out of his way to help me. He was just one of those quiet people who have so much of an impact on the world around them, just by being nice.

I wonder if any of you will understand this.
my_smoky_eyes, nibblett, saccharineheart (all three of those are Amanda) should.
lady_lionne might... but she's from Dallas. :P

stolen from customers_suck

2004-09-08T03:47:19Z

Full entry here

SB: Can you help me?
Me: What do you need?
SB: Can you help me?
Me: I'm starting to doubt it.
SB: I need help.
Me: I can tell.
SB: Can you help me?
Me: Tell me what you need.
SB: I need help.
Me: What. Do. You. Need. Help. With???
SB: My computer.
Me: Can you be more specific?
SB: I got the thing and it'd not working.
Me: Of course.
SB: I want to e-mail it to my professor so she knows.
Me: Ok. Show me. Lead on.

I wish I could be like that. But I enjoy collecting my salary far too much.

Whoo!!!

2004-09-08T01:47:38Z

Remember all the times I griped about doing those tapes?

Smile and nod, people. ;)

At any rate, the guy decided to pay me. Which is cool, since I wasn't expecting it.
So I gots a $100 check now. :D

I should go get my car's front end realigned. or buy cool stuff. Hmm. The choices.

It doesn't matter... I'm happy!!!

C++ teachers are fun.

2004-09-08T00:20:39Z

Student: Do we need to do "such and such" every time?
Teacher: Only if you want it to work right.
~~~~~~~~~~~
If you're a little shaky on this, don't worry. It's on the first test.
~~~~~~~~~~~
Is an infinite loop good or bad? The answer is... MAYBE!
~~~~~~~~~~~
Okay, so what happens here? *points at example on board* *is greeted by silence* Okay, it helps to think of this as a question, where you give the answer.
~~~~~~~~~~~
You can find the Debug files here *points to IP address* if you are on campus, or here*points to other IP address* if you are not here, like for instance you are somewhere else...
~~~~~~~~~~~
Okay, why can you assume there's a problem with this code?
Because we're working in the Debug section of the chapter!!
~~~~~~~~~~~

invis_shadow @ 2004-09-04T01:31:00

2004-09-04T06:32:48Z

SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE'S
*gasp*
HHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRREEEEEEEEE!!!!!